Jesus or Miracles?

Recently I saw a video clip from a movie of St. Peter where St. Peter and the disciples went back to fishing after Jesus was crucified. When they returned empty handed, a man on the shore shouted out to them to cast the net on to the other side... they did as they were told, and drew in a net full of fish.

When St. Peter recognised the man on the shore was Jesus, he jumped into the water, and swam towards the Lord... leaving the fish, the boat and his friends behind.  This was the was not the first time that St. Peter left a boat full of fish to follow the Lord.

Leaving behind the net full of fish meant letting go of some extra cash... the "break" he was waiting for... proof that he is not a "loser" after all... a reason to celebrate... In short, he let go of the miracle to hold on to the Lord.  No wonder he was chosen to take the place of Jesus in the church!

The incident spoke to my own heart. Often I get distracted by the blessings and the miracles, and I come very close to holding on to them instead of the Lord. Often I think of taking a break from Him to enjoy His blessings in my life...

When I go before Him in prayer, He begins His usual "open heart surgery" and I begin to see how easy it is to hold on to the miracles and blessings instead of Him, how easy it is to serve Him without having that intimate relationship with Him, and how easy it is to walk away from Him... and having been there before, I know what it could cost me.

As I continue to sit at His feet, He makes me realise, that no one or nothing is worth leaving Him for. And He gives me the wisdom to let go the blessings, that I may hold on to Him.  He makes me realise, the greatest blessing and miracle in my life is Jesus Himself.  

What would I do without Jesus in my life?  I don't want to know...