Tuesday, April 27, 2010

The Flesh Woman must Die

I once read a book called "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World".  The Author, Joanna Weaver writes about the Flesh Woman (the Flesh) and the Spirit Woman (the Spirit) who lives in each one of us.  In most of us, the Flesh Woman is active and dominant, while the Spirit Woman is either sleeping or dead.  When we receive the Baptism of the Holy Spirit, the Spirit woman (the Spirit) comes alive in us.  Then the war starts... the Flesh Woman who has been in control till then, kicks and screams when the Spirit Woman tries to take control.  The writer shows the importance of the death of the Flesh Woman for the Spirit Woman to live in us.

As I enter into prayer, the Lord started to show me what is going on in my own heart, and surprise, surprise!  I am living in the flesh most of the time.  
I started to give HIM excuses: "but Lord, I did that / said that only because the other person said it / did it first...".  
He is not interested in finding out who is right or wrong, He is focused on saving the Spirit Woman.  
HE is not paying attention to my excuses, HE is working on making the Spirit Woman strong once again.

Recently, Lalith Thaththa said something that really shook me... "if God judges us the way we judge others...."  I have been totally and utterly guilty of this sin - I have judged and condemned people - so easily and so quickly - not giving them a chance to explain.  

The Lord is showing me, that my sin is too dangerous and too great.  HE is reminding me, that HE sent me on the mission to serve, to wash the feet and not to judge. Until I am truly set free from the flesh, I sit at the feet of Jesus and hold on to HIS promise in Luke 19:10 "For the Son of man came to seek and save what was lost".  HE has come after me, not to judge me, but to save me.  Praise the Lord!







I need You more, more than yesterday
I need You Lord, more than words can say
I need You more, than ever before
I need You Lord, I need You Lord
More than the air I breathe
More than the song I sing
More than the next heartbeat
More than anything
And Lord, as time goes by
I'll be by your side
Cause I never want to go back, to my old life

I need You more...

Right here in Your presence is where I belong
This old broken heart has finally found a home
And I'll never be alone…

I need you more…